Dear Life,

Dear life,

Where to start?

First of all, thanks for the mental illnesses! Very appreciated! Not.

Anxiety and depression have taken a lot from me, particularly anxiety which I am still struggling with. This has caused a lot of shit, I’m not going to lie. However my anxiety has improved a lot over time which I am happy about. I have felt so much more confident this year and having a job and developing friends has helped a lot, and I absolutely have you to thank for that.
I have begged you for friends and for a job for years, but you never seemed to answer me. I can’t even begin to describe how sad and angry this made me and how disappointed I was in myself and you. But then one day this year, on the 26th of July, you finally helped. You gave me a great job and fantastic friends and I am thoroughly grateful for them. It feels so strange to actually have friends, and it feels even stranger that I am buying Christmas presents for them this year! I’ve never done that with friends before. I feel so included now.
Now I know that you weren’t ignoring my cries, you were waiting for the right moment to throw me into the world of work and friendship.
I remember you giving me two job interviews at the same time and this was one of the most stressful situations I have been in. I had a hard time deciding, but suddenly, you made sure that one of the interviews kept being delayed, and allowed me to take part in the other interview which I found interesting and enjoyable.
With the other interview being constantly delayed, the place I did an interview for offered me a job and I took it so fast and I am happy I did. It has changed my life, seriously.

I could go on and on about how you have thrown me into continuous stressful situations and how sometimes I dislike you for it. I hate how I have been through things that I wouldn’t wish others to go through, I hate how my last relationships with people have ended and I wish I had more of the things I’ve asked you for, however I need to realise that you, Life, is trying to teach me patience as well as gratefulness and seeing the signs and meanings in things. I am still learning how to do these things, but I think I’m getting on pretty well so far, and I thank you for that. I also thank you for pushing me headfirst into situations I am not comfortable with. I am recognising that this isn’t you necessarily being cruel to me, but showing me that I can get through anything. Thank you Life for being my mentor ๐Ÿ–ค

3 thoughts on “Dear Life,

  1. That’s what life is all about, my friend. It teaches us in various ways and mostly we don’t like it but the fact is, that is happening for our betterment. That’s where we are supposed to learn and face it the way life is scrolling us. Proud of you, Callum!! You’re doing so well, keep it up!!

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